Getting a handle on it

I feel bad having not posted for awhile, but I'm not sure I am good at this. I feel all over the place. I cut back on my hours at work and stepped down as head cashier. It wasn't that I didn't want the responsibility, I didn't want the pressure that was being put on me by the managers that we have. I also need time to get my life organized and uncluttered at home. I wish I had had the courage to go part time when my mother was still alive, but deep down maybe I used the job as an excuse not to help out my Mom because I didn't like it. I am uncomfortable around illness and even more so when someone you care about is ill or in pain. Now the weather is great and I think, Mommy is missing this...or she would love these flowers. Not an hour goes by that some little thing will remind me of her and then I remember that she is gone. I don't want to get all maudlin. More tomorrow.