Thank you, Ladybug

When I was cleaning the kitchen last Saturday, I found a Ladybug. It seems that its good luck has been blessing me this past week. Work is back to being a pleasant place to be. The hours are weird, but I don't close ALL the time, so that is a plus. My car is now totally up to speed. Inspection, stickers, registration...all done! Spencer seems happy and enjoying himself at Yale. Perhaps the period of adjustment is over. I am feeling better, too. I think that we both felt that we had to make a clean break and that it would be easier if we didn't talk as much as we used to. But now we just talk when we have something to say and it is quite often and it isn't so bad now. I still miss him, though. I also miss him as a baby and as a little boy and all those stages of his life that will never be back, so at least I still have my buddy. Going to the casino with Allison later. We have 30 credits from PARX and it is too good to pass up. I should be cleaning the bathroom, but I am off Sat and I will do it then.

1. Paid the bills and still have some money left
2. Am going to the casinos with Allison
3. The kitchen is clean
4. Work is good again
5. I am handling the empty nest thing better

I'm back

Sorry I haven't written but I have been really busy the last couple of weeks. Seven Springsteen concerts can do that to you. Getting to them and getting home from them is exhausting. But when he takes the stage and rocks you for three hours, you forget all the crap you went through to brave the crowds and the uncomfortable seats (that you don't sit in once the show starts) and all the other distractions leading up to it all. And with the way things are, these shows may be the last. Chopper got to touch Bruce's leg. I was unable to get into the pit with them because I had to work. I had asked for so many concessions at work for the previous shows that I just couldn't ask for that day off, too. So I didn't get out in time to get the wristband and get into the pit. And someone had to look after Mommy and make sure that she got from Burlington to the show. But if anyone deserves to touch him, it was Chopper. She gets the tickets, pays for the tickets, arranges for transportation and all that stuff, so I was as happy as she was when I saw her touch his leg. Now, I have to get my house cleaned up and prepped for the holidays. Work has settled down and is not as unpleasant as it was. I am enjoying it again. But when you are going through a bad patch, you feel as though it will never end. I am now having trouble getting my flu shot. Its always something

Got my car, saw the Boss and Spencer

Sometimes things do work out...or even a blind squirrel gets an acorn once in awhile. Anyway, I now posses a beautiful blue Highlander. I feel bad that Vincent is gone, this car is so sweet. I have never owned what is known as a luxury vehicle and I am still getting used to it. Had a bit of drama when we found out that Spencer had taken the wrong train and ended up in Teterboro instead of at Giants Stadium, but thanks to Tommy, that worked out, too. We scooped him up at the Bendix Diner and didn't miss the show. Big WHEW! And as always it is a pleasure to spend time with my fish, but I wish I could make him happy about the way things go sometimes. All I can do is advise him and support him and hope for the best. He has the same flaws that I do...we expect things to go a certain way and when they don't...disappointment. And I was never a big joiner when it came to people and I am one to sit and eat alone rather than inject myself into a group. He is the same way, and that lonely left out feeling is not a pleasant one. But I am helpless in making it easier for him....the only thing I can do is understand. I know that one person cannot be responsible for an other's happiness, but if he is unhappy hen so am I...Because he will always be my little boy and a part of me, so I feel what he feels. And that will never change! So there!
1. After tonite I will be off 5 days
2. I have my Highlander
3.I saw Bruce Springsteen twice and he was great!
4. I got to spend time with Spencer (this should be number 1)
5. will be seeing Spencer again at the end of the week